Faking it...

Hi all,

I have a really high sex drive which has proven itself to be a blessing and a curse sometimes. I have had two sexual partners but neither have been able/are able to make me orgasm. My current boyfriend (who I adore) could be giving me oral for a long time and it’ll feel good but I will just never finish for some reason. I always feel bad so I end up faking it so that he’s happy and thinks that I’m happy. The only way I seem to be able to finish is when I’m by myself...

He has had a few sexual partners before me and I feel kinda inexperienced compared to him and he assured me that they all reached that end goal. I’ve only had sex twice prior to him and it was nothing that great. Is it something wrong with me?

I don’t want to keep lying and I know I’ll have to be honest with him to have a healthy sex life but I’m really scared of disappointing him and having that conversation.

What do I do??

Please help, I really like this guy and want it to work out.