Hubby thinks I’m fat

I am 5’10 and 214 pounds. Yes I admit I’m over weight. My husband constantly ask me if I am going to the gym today, judges me if I eat bad, and constantly looks at my belly when I put an outfit on to go out. I’ve tried to loose weight and keep it off. He doesn’t call me fat but he might as well with the stuff that he does. We have been together for 10 years and my weight is a roller coaster. We were trying to conceive but then I felt like why would I want to get fatter because then he will just make fun of me. Am I alone on this of has anyone else gone thru it and survived?