We have had such a hard time lately, from stress from jobs, money problems, health issues and trying to conceive, lack of sleep from our high needs 11 month old, and many more. We're waiting until next week to hear back about an important job and we also find out next week if I'm pregnant.

We used to write love notes to each other and dance around the house or be goofballs together but lately things have been different. We've been snippy and not patient at all. We're so exhausted and our communication has been bad.

This morning I asked my husband to grab me an avocado since he was going to the kitchen. My name starts with E and his starts with I. He brought it to me and I almost cried. I stood up and hugged him and we both let out a collective sigh. Something so small reminded us of the love between us. We hugged for quite a bit while our son rolled in between us making cute and silly sounds. We both looked down and smiled at the mini-goofball we made. We didn't have to say it but we both knew we're going to be ok... It's all going to be ok and we're in this together.

Here's what the avocado looked like:

I know this seems so silly, but I guess it's all it took to get us back on track.

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Update: Thank you all so much for your kind and encouraging comments. I've read every one of them and you all make me feel so supported! ❤ I'll try to update next week, hopefully with good news :)

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Update #2: Good news/Bad news, sorta

So bad news first, not pregnant but I'm ok we've already started another cycle and have an ultrasound already scheduled. It's not totally bad news though because silver lining, my husband and I managed this blow together as partners. We both supported each other and something that would have crushed me before now made me feel determined and thankful for my supportive husband. So send me your baby dust ladies, I think this time around will be the time 😌

As for the job we got word that he's still in the running and the process can take 6 weeks. So fingers crossed!

Now on to the very good - Our relationship. Things have been so good. We're back to randomly dancing around the house and finding joy through the stress. My birthday was this past weekend and let me tell you what this man did for me.

First I should say we went to bed pretty late and he had to get up at 3am for work. Sometime during the night he got up and plastered the house with "Happy Birthday" in every direction.

So I wake up and start to walk down stairs and I see this:

It's the first clue in a scavenger hunt around the house. Each location after had a picture of someone (him, my baby, even our dog lol etc) and a description of how much they loved me followed by a poem that was the clue to the next location. It ended with a very sweet message and him saying there's a surprise later. The surprise was that he arranged a babysitter and took me to an escape room. We had so much fun. In a couple weeks we're going on a date to an arcade... it's official, we're back to ourselves!

Now we don't expect these extravagant gestures always, but we're doing the little things again, both feel loved, heard, and supported, and most of all we feel hopeful for the future, together.

Thanks again for all of the wonderful feedback and well wishes. I'm too shy to post my pic, but for anyone wondering here are my guys:

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