Sad day

So my son was born on the 10th of June and is doing well. The sad part is he will be my last from me because I ended up with gestational diabetes and preeclampsia and earlie labor and with my first cervix would not dialate and he had a bowel movement so both pregnancies ended in emergency C-Sections the first one I tremered this time my heart rate dropped and I started zoning out. All lead to the choice of "not doing this again." I knew when I made yhe choice I would have days where that choice hurt and I would hate my choice. I am having one of those days. The thought of never being able to personally have a baby again is really got me upset. 😕😞😭😢.

I dont know how to get past this. I understand that we have other option to have more children and I would love them as much as I do the boy's and thats not the issue. I just hate the idea of never feeling life growing inside me

again. Any ideas?

Bash

AZ