Trying not to get my hopes up


For a long time now I’ve sat here reading through posts about positive pregnancy tests hoping and praying that it might be me soon. Me and my partner have struggled for a long time to conceive and I’ve started to become obsessed. When something changed I would get all excited only to find out that I wasn’t pregnant. So today my period is 2 days late and I’m hoping that I don’t come on but I’m too scared to test because I don’t want to get my hopes up to be heartbroken again. My periods are normally spot on every month but this time is different my CM was really thick and a lot of it yesterday but today there’s hardly any CM at all. I’m not feeling myself either. Would love some advice. Thank you in advance