Real Life Love Story (worth the read)

I am by no means a perfect person, I am broken, I am flawed and I’ve made mistakes. For some reason it’s in my heart to share this tonight, that God has a plan for everyone no matter what anyone says about you or to you. You matter. Your Prayers and Desires Matter.

In December of 2015 I heard a sermon in Church and the pastor said

“Ask God to give you a miracle this year, that everyone says is impossible.”

At 20 Years old I wrote in my prayer journal

“God, bring my husband to me this year. I’m so tired of dating and I know this isn’t what I’m meant for. I just want you to bring him to me so I can meet him”

People laughed when I told them and said I was wishing for the impossible, but everyday I prayed and everyday I pressed on.

January 19th I went to a bible study where a member just got married. I looked at her and said

“I’m praying for what you have and I hope God blesses me.”

She looked at me and said

“You will find your husband this year, I don’t know why, but I just know.”

I laughed and honestly thought she was kind of nuts.

Then on January 20th I wrote in my prayer journal about this encounter and when i ran out of time I promised I would write more later.

I never got that opportunity.

On January 20th at 7pm I was told I was going out on a girls night when in reality I was going on a blind date that both of us had previously refused to go on, but we’re tricked into anyway. We exchanged numbers but didn’t think anything would come of it.

Two days later We went on the best date in the world, I suggested we have another. His reply stung as He said he was too busy for a serious relationship, but he had a great time.

I quietly ran into my home, closed the door and began to cry. I grabbed my phone and after some internal wrestling texted him and said

“Thank You for such a wonderful evening I understand that this was a one time date, but Thank You for your time”

To my utter shock he texted right back and said

“I had a wonderful time! If your willing to put up with my work schedule, I think we can make something work!”

After one month of dating I decided to tell him my secrets about struggling with mental illness. His reply was this

“I always knew something was going on because you have certain habits, but honestly it makes me love you even more.”

That was in February of 2016.

After 6 months of dating we decided to get engaged on August 9th and 3 days after his 21st birthday (3 months after mine) we decided to tie the knot in San Diego on March 4th.

I have always suffered with severe mental illness and this was the only time in my life that I had met a person who instantly calmed all of my thoughts (As a person who suffers from severe OCD this is nothing short of a miracle).

Three months after we got married I became pregnant and after a short time of celebrating we were distraught to learn that our baby was not going to make it. I was destroyed.

To my shock and surprise this MAN sat with me in the bathroom and cried with me during the hardest and most painful moments in my life. It was ugly and messy and definitely not what you think your signing up for being a newly wed. BUT it was real love. It was loving someone for better for worse, for ugly or beautiful and everything in between.

Two weeks ago we found out (the same exact date one year apart) we are expecting again. We’ve been praying non stop for signs that this baby will make it. I prayed

“God if this baby will be happy and healthy and this pregnancy will last, let us find a whole sand dollar”.

We walked together on a two plus mile beach for hours strolling along and talking and saw many broken sand dollars but none whole. The next morning we decided to go on another walk in the early morning. As we were walking we saw many broken sand dollars then out of no where, we found two whole sand dollars. The only two on the entire beach.

It’s a struggle everyday not only to wake up, and to believe that God has my husband and I best interest in mind. It’s not easy and many days I fail and I doubt. But I can’t ever forget that God brought the worlds most amazing man to me 2 years ago and for that, I will forever be in grateful for.

This doesn’t mean we don’t fight, have bad days and not get along. It means throughout everything we trust that we were brought together for a greater purpose and pursue each other as husband and wife every chance we get.

Love has so many misrepresentations and so does Faith. This is my story about both and it’s so much better than any fairytale I’ve ever read or movie I’ve ever seen.