I need support and opinions. Please:/

Well I truly thought I saw positive results from about 4 and then I did clear blue and it said not pregnant. This is killing me. I’m seriously not sure why I am so anxious. But I just want one more blessing before I have to have a TVH. Anyone see anything on these? I saw two with faint lines. But I guess I see what I want at this point and I’m sure clear blue digital is not wrong. So guess I’m not pregnant. Again and after two miscarriages. I really need some insight. I need some support and I am stressed. Someone help me please. Thank you