Someone please help me

Age: 13

Weight: 65kg

Height: 165cm

Calories per day: Around 800-1000 depending

Calories burned per day: About 300

I’ve always been uncomfortable with my weight and my looks. Always. Now, I have a holiday coming up in 4 months. I’ll be wearing a swimsuit most of the time. I’m dreading it. All of my friends are really skinny, but I can’t seem to lose weight. They eat so much, and I hardly eat anything. I don’t eat very unhealthily either. I’m too self-conscious to do any sports, but I walk everywhere.

I’ve considered starving myself. My looks have become an obsession, and all I want is to be thin. Not extremely thin, just heathy-looking. Not flabby. I don’t want to starve myself and become ill. I don’t want to develop an eating disorder. I’ve tried to talk to people but it doesn’t work. I just get told the same things over and over again.

Please, please provide me with some quick ways to lose weight without damaging my body. I’m scared.

The thing is, I never feel hungry or thirsty. I have to remind myself to eat meals. I skip breakfast, and sometimes lunch too. Not because I don’t want to eat, or that I’m scared of gaining wait. It’s just an inconvenience of sorts. I’ve never gone a whole day without eating at least something. Also, I don’t have a problem with not eating really unhealthy foods. To me, there’s no emotional attachment to food.

I think these feelings would stop if I could just find a way to lose weight fast. I can’t eat super super healthy because the food served at my school isn’t the healthiest. However, I can exercise. I don’t know what to do. I NEED to lose this weight by October and I don’t know how.

Ps: for some information, today I ate around 900 calories and burned around 750. This is an approximate suggestion, but it’s close. I walked to the nearby cinema and back with my school, and I ate:

An apple

A tango ice blast (I don’t drink these often)

Fish fingers and 2 potato waffles

A little bit of cheese

Some soy milk

A low-fat yoghurt

And lastly some baked crisps

Update:

I’m starting to not want to eat certain foods. I can’t tell if this is good or not. For example, atm I’m feeling bad for eating a crumpet (so British (I can say that cause I’m British) right 😂) for supper. It’s a kind of fear. I don’t know how to explain. Like I can bring myself to eat it, but then it’s a feeling of guilt, or of being greedy. I don’t know

Update #2:

I ate breakfast this morning. Somehow, I’ve put on 2lbs in a month and I look chubbier on the belly but slimmer at the butt and legs. It’s probably muscle forming 😂 oh well, I’ll just keep doing cardio to lose weight and using my body weight for strength training 🤷🏻‍♀️ is there anything else I should be doing? Atm I’m trying interval cardio because it was recommended for fat burning. I’m determined to be healthy and become more confident. I know that not eating enough and not doing exercise never did anything for me. With some help, I’ll get better.

Edit:

CW: 132 lbs (60 kg ahhhhh)

Approx Calories: 1200 a day on good days