Disappointed

So my entire family has been cursed with C-sections. My mom, aunt, and sister. And my grandmother probably should have had one because she had a very traumatic birth with my mom. Basically in their cases baby never engaged and no one ever dilated. Even with pitocin. I was DETERMINED to break that curse. I’ve been drinking the tea and doing the squats and going on the walks. I’ve stayed active throughout my pregnancy. I don’t necessarily care about the “experience” of childbirth although it would be cool to experience it. But I just care about the safety for mom and baby. And I’m a nurse so I know there’s a great risk for bleeding, infection, and blood clots with c-section.

Well..... baby is breech. She still has time to turn and we might opt for ECV if she doesn’t, but I’m just disappointed to know I might not get a chance to even try to deliver vaginally. And this is my first baby subsequent births would be sections or VBAC which has its own risks. I just feel a bit... cheated? I don’t know. Just disappointed.