ok so I'm 35 weeks pregnant...pregnancy hasn't been an easy time for me I was really ill untill around 20 weeks then spent the rest arguing with the other half constantly defending my every action...until we split a month or so ago...so since the split I've been trying to sort out finances find somewhere to live...and I got all this done and finally felt like I was starting to chill out and relax... until I get a message from my friend saying that she has done everything to help me and feels like I've pushed her aside and csnt even tell her I've got the keys to my flat...I'm not currently staying st the flat im still.st my mum's as I'm waiting on a few things being delivered... I would like to point out that I have not intentionally pushed anyone aside and appreciate every thing she has done for me but as a person I enjoy my own space and Luke to come and go as I please...(last text her was the other week) I've been enjoying just having some chill.time on my own and im so tired and my body is in agony so can't really walk far... I have a niggley feeling that she and my ex have been conversating as my ex has let it slip a few times thst they have been texting back and forward and have become really good friends... so maybe subconsciously I have distanced myself but i had no idea I was doing it... I don't know what has been said or anything and to be honest I don't want to know. I'm trying to be civil.at least with my ex for the babies sake so I need to have a relationship with him... but I'm not sure we are on good enough terms for to be sharing one of my best friends with him...I know this because in the heat of things after the split my friend was the person he ranted to...got things off his chest to... cause he told me in an argument. so now I'm not even sure what I feel... confused..like every one is working against me. can't even open up to my best friend running the risk he finds out about it.. not that she would but it's still.a risk... my other friends point blank refuse to talk to him or even discuss me with him if they have to speak to him... am I thinking too much into this? Or would you guys feel the same? I get I maybe should have told her about the keys but I genuinely didn't do it deliberately...so on that note i take the blame... but I don't think I've pushed her away I've been keeping in touch every couple of weeks. I dunno.