Does a bj or a hj feel better?

(F13) So my bf and I were talking about blow jobs and hand jobs and he said if I wasn’t comfortable he said I didn’t have to do either because he’d rather just finger me instead but I don’t wanna just leave him with nothing in return so I said I’m only down to give him a hand job because we sent each other nudes so I don’t get nervous and it was a lot bigger and hairier then I thought so I didn’t wanna put that in my mouth and disappoint him bc I could only fit 2 inches in my mouth (I practiced on a banana) and he said I’d rather a blow job but I honestly don’t want to and I asked why and he said because it feels better and I just didn’t wanna ask any more questions so now I need to know which feels better, quick! Thank you