Controlling??
For the first time I feel like I am in a very controlling relationship and don't know what to do or if I am just terrible at relationships. I told my bf yesterday that this guy I know invited me to go for a ride on his motorcycle and go get a drink. I know I know that doesn't sound right. He freaked the fuck out in the first message! He goes off about how maybe I should just be single cause I'm not getting it and I can go ride any guys bike. And asks "how many guys are you talking to anyway?" as if I am some kind of slut!! This guy is a friend I met last year at a brewery I was a regular at(this was before I even met my bf) we havent talked much because I havent been there since an incident happened with a bartender after my bf and I started dating. Then we bumped into each other dancing(two step) a few weeks ago. I didnt know he had a bike and I asked to ride, I enjoy it and haven't been for a ride in years. My bf doesnt like bikes but you know he will gladly jump out of an airplane for fun...anyway I have always had more guy friends than girl friends its nothing new. I have friends all over the country so no we dont always keep up and talk all the time neither do he and his friends. I hear about random old buddies all the time. He goes off about how I don't ask him to go out for a drink, he is trying not to drink cause he wants to lose weight, he is allergic to gluten so he shouldnt be drinking beer and when he does drink its almost always at home alone or out with his guy friends and he doesn't invite me either. I dont complain and let him do it because we are allowed to do things without each other with our own friends. The amount of things that I hear about after the fact, a few weeks ago he goes to the drop zone and says they are just gonna drink there then I wake up the next morning to see his Snapchat story of some homeless man in downtown showing them a magic trick, and I find out from him the next morning about some guy that wrote a bad review for the drop zone because of him. And I hear about all of this the next day. I can't seem to do anything except go to school or work without his permission/approval. I let(not that I have to let him) do whatever he wants because I trust him!! I will tell him if I feel uncomfortablr about something but eve then he seems to do whatever he wants. A few months ago he almost beat the shit out of one of my guy friends while he was drunk simply because the guy was talking to me so I can't talk to that friend anymore. He barely likes it when I go dancing because I am dancing with other/random guys. Its nothing gross its just two step which is like swing/ball room.(my bf can't dance cause he needs knee surgery but after the surgery I am Definitely gonna teach him cause I want to dance with him). I don't know if he doesn't trust me after these last 10 months of being together and basically living together for some reason or he is just insecure I honestly dont know. But seems like I can't do anything without his ok. Obviously I tell him when I am doing something out if respect if I want to go hang out with someone but if it js ever a guy he freaks the fuck out. I dont have a lot of girl friends for many reasons so basically I can't do anything. And feel isolated all of a sudden.
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