i hate my alcoholic husband
my husband drinks every day and night, w only skipping 1 day of not drinking. everytime he drinks, hes so mean to me, he gets abusive verbally, gets mad easily, like seriously everything i say or do, pisses his ass off. even how careful i am, the way i sit or lay down will piss him off. hed ask me questions and if i answer it the way he doesnt like, he will get piss. which i always answer it the way he doesnt like, even if i just say no, yes, or idk.he will get physically abusive, by pushing my head hard, or using his elbow to push my head. he gets very aggressive w me. he will complain to me all day about bad things, repeating it over and over, and in the end act like im against him, i dont agree w him, i dont listen to him, and gets angry at me. he will burp at my face and blow it to my face. while glaring at me evily. he always glare at me and he looks exactly like a devil when hes buzzed/drunk. he will say that i always have to bother him when hes at his worst, but not when he isnt. he would try to make me mad or annoyed so that he can be mean to me. i seriously really fking hate the way he is when he drinks, to the point where i want to hospitalize him. but i dont have the heart to do it. ive been w him for 4yrs, the 1st yr he was like this, but stop for 3yrs, even tho he drinks, he doesnt act like this. hed still be himself, but now that our 5yr is almost here, hes starting to be rude to me again when it comes to drinking. its been 2mths now of having to deal w this and im getting so fed up w it. hes a very caring, loving, and affectionate man when he doesnt drink. but i only get to be w that man for a day and when he has works and he only works for 3days. he wont change and still wants to continue drinking. he says if i want to be w him, i have to deal w it.