I can’t masturbate??

Like I’m thirsty af alllll the time and I really think that a good one on one session would help. Unfortunately I can’t get myself off. I get a bit wet but then I don’t know what to do after - I’m sensitive but then when I touch myself more I stop feeling anything. My friends find it easy, the internet is not helping.

I also don’t know if I should be wetter - I used to watch something (not porn) that made me rlly wet (like thighs shaking??) but that was like two years ago and I didn’t know what was happening at the time (I was 14). I can’t find anything that turns me on like that.

The only time I’ve been that turned on otherwise was w my boyfriend, and even that wasn’t as much, plus we broke up and now I just don’t seem to have any follow through. We never had sex so idk what I’m doing.

It’s really frustrating, I don’t know if it’s a mental block either bc I get guilty abt it when I try and touch myself? Plus I’m squeamish.

Sorry for the tmi I just really need advice 👀👀