Baby Shower Shopping

Today I had to go shop for a baby shower present for a good friend couple of ours. It took everything out of me to not cry in the baby aisle at Walmart.

If we had not miscarried, I would have only been two weeks behind this particular friend. I struggle trying to be happy for my friends who are expecting but it just hurts so much and I feel really guilty.

I know I am not alone but for some reason that just doesn’t help the pain. We are trying again but this up and down emotional roller coaster is taking a toll. For those of you in the same situation, how are you coping? Am I horrible for feeling this way even though it’s been 4 months since I miscarried?