I can feel my eyes tearing up.

But even though I'm alone in the dark, with everyone sleeping...I'm still not going to cry.

So much goes on in my head, I need a vacation from myself.

I feel like an idiot. My phone is on 57%. I really need to get my life together. How many people use this app anyway?

God, I hate myself so much..I should calm down...5 months clean...wow...

I wish I could be one of those girls who are perfect..who have thousands of followers in instagram who idolize and adore them.

Someone please notice me.

Is it bad that I'm ignored so much that I damn near ignore myself?

It's cold.

My scars are going away..

I need sleep..

I should start smoking..or find away to drink more often.

Who in their right mind is actually read this anyway? No one..

I can feel my eyes tearing up.

But even though I'm alone in the dark, with everyone sleeping...I'm still not going to cry.