Hey, everyone. I was raised Catholic and have definitely gone through a journey with my faith- ups and downs. I had an experience that completely opened me up to The Lord and, for a solid year, I was so happy with my relationship with Jesus and my church. However, I also started learning more about other religions. I saw the similarities and the differences between all of the major religions, and I kind of decided that I was done attempting to be religious. My reasoning is that, yes- we have The Bible, we have Jesus, we have The disciples. But so does every other religion. Hinduism has holy texts that they believe just as much as Christians believe in the Bible. I feel like my life with Christ had kind of been a lie. Like it was just a product of my environment. I live in the U.S., in a majority Christian area. My friends are Christian, my family is Christian, so of course I would be Christian. If I had grown up in India, I would probably be Hindu. We can say that they’re just wrong, but they’re saying the same about us. Who am I to tell someone their religion is wrong?

At the same time, I find myself always going back to Catholicism. Every time I’m scared, I still pray the Hail Mary. If someone asks me if I’m religious, I say Catholic. I can’t tell if this is just out of habit. To a certain extent, I really want to believe in Christ again.

I would love any advice you have to offer. I think any insight would help. Thank you for taking the time to read this mess.