am i crazy

, i constantly feel upset and want to cry. and i’m always panicking if i forgot to do something and how my mom is going to react or something i said to someone, or something someone said to me, etc, but i have this really weird feeling that i can barely explain. like every night when it gets dark, i feel really upset, it reminds me of my past in a way. just like the way the wind flows in my window and the way that i feel just makes me feel super weird and sad. idk you all probably think i’m crazy. i really need to talk to a therapist but i can’t in person. my anxiety is too bad (if it even is anxiety) i tried “BetterHelp” but after i made my account and answered all the questions they said my problems and what i have are too serious for them to be able to help me with. is there anything else i can do?