In A Birthing Pickle..

I literally don’t know who I want with me for the birth. I want my partner but if he is around he will immediately call his mother to come once the baby is born or even.. he will tell her to come during the birth. I don’t want it, I really do not and there is no way I can explain that nicely to him. He will take it the wrong way! (Because of dif culture) I really want him to be there but nobody else.! With my Son.. I felt like his family came from one hour after birth till I left the hospital and it drove me insane.. I felt like I had no space to process the whole thing that I just gave birth!!!!!!! I just don’t want that to happen with my next baby due soon.. it will most defo make me not think straight at all!! 😐... even after birth I may even feel like I can’t get away from visitors. I just want to enjoy my new baby , my son and my man but I feel like he will let his mother come round all the time and I will have no bonding time with my baby... some grandmothers just don’t really know limits and she is the type of person that will act as if she is the mother. & she will just be giving me so much advise like she is right when in actual FACT ... some of it is medically wrong.. I can list plenty of things .. like .... I don’t want to go into that but this time I am deciding to breast feed and I know she will keep saying the baby is not getting enough milk and will want to give her formula but NO I don’t want it. When I’m around her I just feel so so so pressured to do stuff I don’t actually want to! I am considering staying at my mums after I come out of the hospital !