So much arguing

So me and my bf argue a lot because of the things he decides to say . Today I made a joke abt him and he said well hoes love it & me and I just stared at him because that’s something that we argue about .. HOES. So I’m like if I made a joke abt u why can’t u make a joke about me why the fuck do you have to bring up something we always fucking arguing about. Not that he cheats well not that I know of but that’s just a topic . He wants to have girl friends and I can’t have guy friends like this man is just so unfair . We fought cause I’m like why say when u know we argue abt that and sometimes I do see him texting another girl but their all friends or cousins. Anyway we were supposed to go out to eat I came over in a good mood I was happy till he mentioned that like I already have trust issues wtf is wrong with you. When we joke or argue I never mention the guys who are lined up that want me and ask to eat my damn ass cause it’s so irrelevant . He doesn’t know what to say and what not say so we ended up fighting and I ended up leaving and crying and driving away 😭. When we fought he pushed my head hard and I’m just over it at this point I need advice on how to let go 😫