First Time Mom

So I'm a first time mom I had my son on 11/17/17. It was a hard delivery I was induced that day at around 6 am when it finally came time for me to start pushing I pushed for 2 hours still no baby by this time I was so tired and week that the Dr used a vacuum to pull him out because he was stuck and because of this he was so purple and he wasn't breathing they finally got him to breath he had jaundice when he was born and it was pretty bad that we were at the hospital for almost a week because of that. Do to him getting stuck in me he had trouble turning his head to the right and had trouble using his arm he went to therapy he now uses his arms both and truns his head both way but because of the fact that he only laid his had on the left side he got a flat spot so now he has a flat head and has to be put in a halment and I'm a little emotional about it I feel like it's all my fault because I had trouble giving birth to him other then having flat head he's pretty perfect Idk why I'm posting guess to help me get through this... He's 8 month old now