I feel like I have wasted my life ugh

So I’m 19 years old. I’m a full time college student, work full time (I have worked since I was 15) and I live with my fiancé and pay bills.

I have always wanted to be in a college dorm, having fun and meeting new people. It makes me sad that I wasnt able to do that. My dad passed away recently and it made me realize life is so short and I never have gotten to experience things like that or do things that I want to do. 😕

Just wanted to vent