TW body/sex talk

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My nipples are constantly erect and breasts always perky. I was always ashamed of them as my father always made fun of my breasts all my life both as a child and as a teenager/young adult. He'd always try and pinch them (I think maybe he did actually pinch and touch them but I can't be sure) and yeah stuff like that... Either way he chase me around the house trying to pinch them and it always made me uncomfortable. And ex bf's made fun of them too. Apparently they're perfect (as all breasts are IMO). They're a B cup and perfectly round with super perky nips always poking out. I'm happy with them now. Fuck you dad... He also made me feel bad about my butt and hips saying they jut out like a milk cow... he'd actually touch my butt and hips too and stuff and said my "cute little ass" was his to touch as he pleases and "anything you do with your boyfriends you can do with your daddy".... I have so many body issues now like an eating disorder and PTSD and other issues because of my dad and his jokes about my body and sex abuse stuff and also my ex bf's. My dad would always tickle me and do his "games" which were severely painful "methods" he would do to my tendons and nerve bundles in my erogenous zones like genital areas and other places too. He qpuld also use waterand lights to hurt me. I've been told it was literal torture, along with sexual grooming, and programming... :( He qpuld train me to dissociate and turn into a doll to be used. Fuck all of them... Apparently my current bf says I have a body to die for. He is the only bf ever to make me feel beautiful and valued and loved.