😞😡 AF is hiding

I think Mother Nature is just playing with my emotions.. I get a faint positive on all test I’ve done (6) to be exact lol... and in the day that my period is due, today.. I get a negative.. I mean idk if it’s just me that thinks I see a vvvfl but now idk.. My body doesn’t feel like AF is around the corner only my boobs r sore to the touch but hey how things r going she’s hiding some where near by most likely... this really sucks... I’m 35 gonna be 36 this year.. maybe I should just stop trying... and know that last year when I miscarried, was gonna be my last chance of ever getting pregnant again.. 😩😞😭