Am I broken? Orgasms aren’t happening and I’m sexually frustrated.

I posted this anonymously because honestly I’m embarrassed that I haven’t had one given my age. I’m 27 years old and I’ve never had an orgasm. I’m married and my husband knows I’ve never had one. At first he used to try really hard but now I think his self esteem about giving me one has gone down because it hasn’t happened. It’s more about him now. Now as soon as he’s finished we are done. Of course there are sessions where he will focus on me and no luck. And I really think it brings him down. Sometimes I feel like faking it just to get him happy but then I don’t feel right about that. I’ve tried doing it on my own but that hasn’t worked either. There’s been times where I’m close either with my husband or on my own but then I get all scared and stop myself or stop him. Anyone else feel this way their first time close to one? I’m not sure what to do. I’ve heard once you have your first it gets easier but trying to get that first hasn’t happened for me. Sometimes I wish there was a pill I could take that would give me one just to get it over with lol any advice on my situation??? I’ve used toys (I actually sell sex toys which work great for other girls from what they tell me but hasn’t worked for me) I’ve used creams to enhance pleasure, role playing, focusing on me longer to get me aroused with no success. Help.

-sexually frustrated chick