so i was dating this guy in my school we didnt know each other well so i had a crush on him but i wasnt thinking about too much and he had a crush on me too but he is too much of a pssy to admit it but anyway so we talked just ait and all of the sudden boom he asked if i want to be is gf so i said yes of course i was dumb ok but he doesnt want anyone to know but i cant keep my mouth shut so i told my friends.it was really awkward at first and i was the alpha i had to do everything then 2 months later we were fine we were more open we kept talking to each other and blah blah blah then he started to be horny and i didnt want that cus its too far so i always say no but once i said yes so i took a pic of the side of my boob while i was wearing a bralette to be honest it looks sexy but i knew what i did was wrong.then something that i didnt expect happen...he sent a dic pic and it was big and thick but im scarred by it then he sent me a video of him wanking and i was like sjfhfrufbthstefnrrh so that was ew. so it was nearly holiday we went to the cinema i remembered in the middle of the movie he asked me if i could kiss him so i was like um ok then he put my and on his pants and im like omg dhfjffnr then he took it out and i tried to pulled my hand back but he was too strong then i felt his dic n i was like oml then he grabbed my hand so that i could hold his dic sand he started moving them and then i had panic attack i was shaking but he didnt care and he went faster and faster rhen he came it was all over my hand i had panic n anxiety attack it was the worst he finally let go and i quickly ran to the bathroom ready to burst down in tears i quickly washed my hand with tons of soap then locked my self in the cubicle i burst in tears my body was shaking i was traumatized my depression n anxiety came out it was the worst day of my life i cried for a long time then a cleaner went in she heard me crying so she knocked the doors she was worried and panicking but i kept crying n i couldnt do anything i couldnt stand and move my hands i was shaking alot then she tried talking to me nbut i didnt care i was scared i felt dirty so then she left me and i kept crying then my friends heard me crying from outside the bathroom they rushed in they didnt know why i was crying but they were making me feel better and tried to calmed then the security came i got worse cus there is too much ppl inside then my friend told them to get out and there is one friend thats in the bathroom she taked to me and so i calmed abit and opened the door she helped me get up and sit on the toilet seat i tried to tell her everything but words didnt come out easily then the security came and he asked what happend i looked down and my friend said personal reason he called other security they came then asked me questions aout my health then he suggest if we get out i felt exaushted and reaaalllly dizzy then i fainted idk what happend after that but then i woke up in the hospital with iv on my hand idk why and my friends were waiting for me my side of the room is full of flowers it was really pretty i was happy so i spend the next day in the hospital then came home and my friends helped me alot during that time then school start i was traumatized i couldnt speak but i managed to go my friends were all with me it was really nice then i saw him i had a panic attack then he looked and went to me as if he didnt do anything wrong i got scared so i cried then my friends pulled me away from him his friends were watching and wondering why im crying alot then my friennds pulled him away from me and took me inside n head to the sick bay then they helped me clamed down so i did.i got better n i was talking normally i talk to him abit he was touchy and would pull me so i culd sit on his la and he wuld get a boner. then his friend that is my friend too told me that he have been talking to girls dirty and flirt and stuff alot of times especially when i was in the hospital my heart was broken because i felt so low and like a cheap girl so i decided to brake up with him i told him that he is a dirty thirsty fckboy but he wont admit it. my friends decided to expose him ,ad everyone know about it even the teachers and my brother is a teacger and year adviser for my grade in my school.then there was a point where 2 grades knew about it and they all hate him even his friends too some of the girls are in my school and my friend told me who they r n of course my friends expose them too they were all hated by alot of people.and now he lost alooooot of friends and he became a demon he also lie alot was not trying hard and definately not loya at all but im loyal loving caring although i dont wanna show too much affection in public so that i could respect them and now he got a slutty af golddigger gf and honestly theyre disgusting and doesnt respect the public i saw the in priceline buying things for uk that they were so excited and one of my fried took a video of it and he would often skip school ever since that happen and ever since that happen i havent seen him or talk to him or anything. so my advices r always pick the right guy the man thing is trust honesty and loyalty and always remember u have a choice and never thing quickly that u found the right guy