Fingers Crossed

Trying not to even think about this y’all! BUT my period is 2 days late. I haven’t tested yet because I have this awesome luck where literally as soon as I piss on the stick, the red death arrives!!! 😑 Soo if a week from now I’m still late, then I’ll test. For now, I’m trying not to get my hopes up or think on it too much. I want it so bad, and we have been trying for what feels like forever. I can’t tell my husband Im late either or talk about this with him because he gets so disappointed. Ever since our loss in March, babies are a hard subject for him. (More than i realized really) Ugh...I’m probably not going to be able to sleep and I’m going to over think things and end up starting tomorrow.. But at the same time I feel so hopeful..Fuck!!!!! I’m going to go insane over ttc..