What are your boyfriends like

This is so long and if you actually read this i love you.

I’m 20 and i have a bf I’ve been going out with since we were 17. He’s the only boy I’ve ever dated. I’ve heard people say that you shouldn’t only date one person in life bc yadda yadda. I don’t necessarily believe that but sometimes i do understand.

So anyway I’m always wondering what it would be like with another guy—I’m not saying i wanna date another guy, i want to marry my bf. Even if we split up for some times of self-finding i still wanna marry him.

I’m just curious as to what other males are like. Are they all the same? Is my boyfriend just this way? What are your boyfriends like? Mine loves to play videogames. Sometimes he’ll make jokes that kind of hurt my feelings. IE we always hang out with only each other and i asked does he wish he had more males to hang out with. He said he does at school. I asked what their names were. He told me to “chill” as in he’s not going to tell me. The other day i asked him to teach me to play his videogames so we could play together and i wouldn’t have to sit there bored on the couch behind him and watch. He said “ew” or something like that. I know he was joking because eventually he let me sit on his lap and he showed me how to play. Yesterday we were both hungry so he made mozzarella sticks and let me only have two. I tried to get more but he kept telling me that i couldn’t have any 😐 after trying repeatedly i figured that fight was not even worth it so i just ignored it and proceeded to sit and watch him play. He could tell i was unhappy so he said sorry even though i could tell it wasn’t genuine, that he was saying it only for me to cheer up. After a little longer i could tell that he was actually sorry and he apologized for it again and admitted that he was being stupid for no reason.

He has the power to make me laugh when nothing is funny. Like when we play catch and i don’t catch the ball i burst into laughter and so does he. I love that. Sometimes when we look into each other’s eyes it makes me smile so hard that i end up laughing.

Sometimes i ask him to read the Bible with me. He always says he will but he never actually does because, as he puts it, he’s “procrastinating.”

We work near each other so sometimes on my break I’ll go see him.

We have a handshake we made up a while ago and intend to add onto it every so often.

He gets SUPER upset SO EASILY. These are legit examples: we were on a walk and i don’t remember what happened but something reminded me of that episode of friends where Monica thought chandler jerked off to sharks. I thought that was funny so i started telling my boyfriend— he got “disgusted” with me, in disbelief that i would “watch someone jerk off” so then he left me and walked the other way. I was walking ahead of him so i didn’t even notice until i turned around and he was just gone. Yesterday he was watching this Snapchat that i made of the two of us. I sent it to my sisters so it had a girl-ish caption. He said he didn’t understand it and then watched it like five times. I asked how many times does he need to watch it to understand. So he got upset and rolled over to the other side of the couch and then stopped talking to me for like ten minutes. He later told me that by the tone of my voice when i asked, he thought that i was annoyed when he was just trying to admire me. Which i guess makes sense if you’re stupid but how are you gonna avoid me because you’re unhappy you can’t admire me?

When we go outside i like to jump on his back or have him pick me up and then he always pushes me in the grass and we just laugh the entire time.

Sometimes i feel like we barley talk to each other. Our car rides tend to be in silence. Not always—just sometimes. We oftentimes sit in the parking lot of Kohl’s and just talk about anything—nothing in particular. It’s my favorite things in the world, just sitting there talking about our favorite movies, memories, our days at work. Recently it’s just like: him playing his game and me watching, us watching the television together, and us making out. I’ve been telling him i want to go on a picnic or to the beach or something and now he’s annoyed because i “won’t stop saying that”. It’s not that i necessarily want to be in those places—i do—but i just want to TALK to him. I want to go enjoy the nice weather, i want to get rid of the technology and i just want to TALK.

The maddest I’ve ever gotten at him was over a sock. Yes a sock. He took my sock and wouldn’t give it back. Mind you the fact that i didn’t have my sock wasn’t what was making me mad. The fact that i asked him nicely to stop doing something, and the fact that he wouldn’t it was pissed me off. I had even told him that i was getting upset and would calm down if he just gave it back. But he continued to keep it from me. I pushed him and threw my shoe at him.

A few days later we were laughing all about it.

What do you and your boyfriends talk about?

I have really bad anger issues and he hates it when i get explosively angry at him. But if I’m being honest he’s usually the one causing it.

He loves when i send him selfies.

One time he took me home and he was telling me about how “his coworker” did something nice. He kept referring to that person as “my coworker” “said coworker” “said person” so i knew he was obviously talking about a female and his attempts at subtly were pissing me off so i just told him to end the story and then he got upset and me for interrupting him to say that.

When you and your boyfriend are seeing each other— i mean like when he comes to pick you up what does he do? Does he come to the door and walk you to the car and open the door for you? My boyfriend comes to the door only because i ask him to (my dads old fashioned and says that’s what males should do. I also think it’s a nice gesture). My boyfriend would never open the car door for me that’s just not him. My moms husband will open the door for her AT ALL TIMES. Even if it’s just my mom who is getting out of the car, he will get up open the door for her and then get back inside. There have been times where I’ve gotten into the car and said hi to my bf and he just doesn’t say it back. Not always, just sometimes. He doesn’t let me kiss him either. I don’t even have an explanation for that.

Sometimes i see girls posts on twitter and eve and they’re like “omg i don’t deserve my boyfriend” and it’s screenshots of him telling her how much he loves her, or surprising her with a promise ring, or bringing her pads and chocolates. Like do all males do that bc my bf sure doesn’t. I’m also a hopeless romantic and i LOVE romance books but they set my expectations so high bc boys in books are not like boys in real life (or like my bf i should say). He doesn’t believe in promise rings bc he thinks their pointless. I mean it’s be nice to get one but at the same time i don’t really care.

In the past few years we’ve almost broken up maybe 3 times. But we didn’t. And all the 3 times he’s cried, which i know means something bc these past few years I’ve only seen him cry twice (over stuff not related to me).

He tells me that I’m the most beautiful girl in the world and that I’m his future wife. He does make me happy but sometimes he makes me very sad. There are days where i wanna hug him and kiss him and marry him ASAP. There are other days where i want to cry and never speak to him again. How does your bf make you feel? What do you guys do for fun? How often do you argue? Does he make you feel special?

Edit: why haven’t i left him you may wonder. Idk maybe I’m stupid but something inside me won’t let me do that. Like i said yes i hate him sometimes but sometimes i tell myself No you can get through this he’s just immature and he’ll grow out of it. I remind myself of all the good times we’ve had and how happy he’s made me. I remind myself that we want to be together forever. I remind myself how unhappy I’d be if he was ever with another girl, and how i don’t even wanna imagine ever being with another guy ever. I’d rather be single than not be with him. I want to get married and sometimes i just don’t know what to do😞 he tends to make me unhappy but i don’t wanna not be with him