Fuck people

So lemme tell y’all this. I was contacted by a modeling agency. I know right. I was beyond excited because a) don’t feel beautiful enough to model and b) I’m short and stumpy. Anyway... I went to the auditions and passed all levels with flying colours. Next comes the last level I had a conference call with this lady. We sent her this pic as she requested a picture where I was most comfy. (I’m a YouTuber so I used this)

And she took one look and canceled our app. We didn’t understand why so we called and called we were given the run around and no one wanted to answer our simple question. Finally we’re answered. Her exact words were “ your face is too like big for what we’re looking for and just like your whole body structure is bigger thank we anticipated.” Mind you we sent pictures for the last week as they demanded.

I know I’m not the skinniest person but my world is shattered. I’m starving but it’s almost like my body can’t eat because it feels fat. Or too big

She killed all the confidence I had in my big body. Like what do I do. I’m not sure anymore really. I’ve been going to the gym and going hard. But it still seems I’m too big for everything.

Rant over. Sorry guys.