Losing virginity

Me and my boyfriend have been together for 11 months.

I am terrified of having sex with him because the last time it hurt so fucking bad and he only got the tip in and from that point I've wanted to have sex I have just been terrified to do it again.

I really want to have sex with him, it's starting to take a toll on me. All his friends say I should just put out and get on with it and all my friends have had sex. I'm an adult now! I feel broken.my partner has had sex 7 times before. Apart from being turned on and lube is there anyway I can stop these feelings, sometimes I just want to knock myself out so he can put it in or get numbing cream of some sort. I honestly feel like there may be something wrong with me.