I want to ttc but idk

My SO and I were trying to conceive a few months ago but then after a falling out we had we decided to stop trying. Well I want to start trying again and maybe it’s not the right time but the desire to want to have a baby isn’t going anywhere and no matter how I try I can’t shake it. I don’t know how to tell him what I’m feeling because I don’t know what his response will be, but secretly I’m hoping for a perfect accident to happen where we can be pregnant. What should I do ?

I should elaborate on the “perfect accident part” because it may seem like I’m trying to trap him and I AM NOT, we don’t use protection and although we are not trying we are not preventing and if it happened we both agreed it would be a blessing and just in God’s time. Hopefully that brings clarification to any pessimist that are suggesting “respecting his decision”