Early stage of labor...

So yesterday was pretty rough- I was having contractions and cramps and lots of pressure all day. Went to l&d twice. First time I went from 1/2cm and 50% to 1 cm and 50%. Second time she said I was a 1 and 80%. Let me go home both times. Today I'm so sore from the contractions, still having them just not painful like yesterday's. I feel so bummed and I'm just ready to have him. 😰 I'm only 35 w 3 d but my body is telling me he's ready. I want to kick start the labor but I don't want him to come too early. I'm miserable now 😭