I feel like ive been 9 weeks for three weeks 😑

I'm already 112% done with this first trimester crap. God, I can't even reach double digits, how am I supposed to make it until 15? 20? 40? I'm so damn tired and I haven't wanted to eat a single healthy thing.

I'm legit done with this app until I'm 20 weeks. Which will never ever happen. So many people are like "I didn't get a baby bump until 23 weeks" "I didn't feel my baby until 19 weeks" well when the hell does this become REAL pregnancy? Doctors don't wanna see you, you don't get to tell anyone, feel crappy with no obvious pregnant sign, can't buy anything yet, cant be motivated to move and prepare, and the monthly group is just full of people boasting about their third pregnancy baby bumps and their 13 week ultrasounds while I'm due at the end of the month at a pitiful 9 weeks and twiddling my thumbs half dead on the couch wishing I could enjoy this now.

When does this get better? Can I pay somebody to put me in a coma until I'm 20 weeks or something? How do you ladies enjoy this before pregnancy is half over?

I sure rant a lot. I haven't cried hormonally but I have sure raged a lot