Feeling alone and I'm surrounded by people

Seeing my psych once in awhile isn't working out but that's when she can fit me in and with my ins i don't have many options on who to go to. And I have no one around that i can talk to. I don't have many friends and my family just tells me it's my pregnancy hormones. I can't talk to my husband and I can't talk to his family. Everyone thinks we have this fairy tale life when a lot of our days are spent fighting. There's nothing fairy tale about it. Im only fine with my body now because im pregnant but since we found out my husband doesn't ever tell me im beautiful anymore like he use to all the time even tho I've never felt that way another reason I don't want to have sex because I hate that he has to see me this way when he isn't attracted to me when im pregnant. He says he's excited but when i ask he gets all pissy about it. Like it's my fault we're having twins. Im sorry that wasn't your plan. I hate being pregnant because my family makes me hate it. Im suppose to be happy all the time and to be up for ANYTHING they want to do but the moment i need someone to do something for me because it's physically impossible for me to do it and it's not healthy for me or my unborn babies everyone gets upset. I have been telling every one that they can do it when they get the chance but it still doesn't get done. Im planning a gender reveal its been set for a couple months now and nothing is done. I'm just going to cancel it. No one seems to care anyways. I hate having to expect other people to do things for me why i hate being pregnant. But I love my babies. My MIL thinks it will be best if my children are born 4+ weeks early that way we have that advantage when we do our taxes this year when I dont give a shit about taxes i want my babies to be born healthy she doesn't seem to care. She treats me like im a fucking petting zoo because "she's grandma so she can" fuck you I'm mom and im a human being if you didn't put them there don't touch me. Im a socially awkward person and when ppl just come up to me to touch me gives me anxiety. I am a person who has a right to my own body not to mention I give her chances to touch my belly all the time but that's with my say not when ever she feels like it. I can't talk to my parents about it because i want my parents to like his parents and to have my parents and everyone else to keep thinking we live in a fairy tale. The moment they see we don't its automatically 100% my fault my husband can do no wrong in anyone's eyes. I sit there and think I want more children but after shit like this goes down I don't im tired of being treated like my feelings and thoughts don't matter just because it's my "pregnancy hormones" when I've felt this way all the time before i just again can't talk to anyone about it.