Okay well hey everyone I've been having something on my mind for a while or well more on my chest. I'm 18 and my boyfriend is 22 and In the beginning everything was perfect he would text me all the time he would come and visit me and everything was new to us. Me and him just turned 4 months and these past months have been a challenge. Why you may ask? Well because the enchant me started wearing off and so real stuff was happening. We got in a car accident together, he started college again, and he started hanging out more with his friends or family. And so I really didn't do anything or say anything because he has the right to hang out with friends and family and plus he has responsibilities like work and school.okay perfect. Until I went into his ig to hack it and be cute but what I found was cute it actually hurt. I saw that there were messages of him going to girls asking for numbers and calling them cute and sexy and etc. okay well we broke up and fought and then we got back together . I know stupid of me I gave him trust. And he took it and threw it away cause 1 week later he did the same s*** . And so we broke up and then he kept looking for me and saying he loves me and etc so I caved. In and went back with him. But ever since that things have been getting worst . And now I'm talking to my guy friends but like flirty type of way but the mest up part is that I think he's on the other side of the screen. And so everyone tell me to leave him that he's a piece of 💩 and that I deserve better but my feelings are so strong for this kid that idk what to do cause sometimes he shows me he loves me and he cares about me but when he's busy he forgets I even exist so idk. I keep trying to keep us us but this is harder then I thought and I feel like it's more 95-10 instead of 50-50 becauseI put more effort so idk what to do. That's why I talk to other guys cause they give me more attention then what he gives me but I feel bad cause it's basically me doing what he did to me to him but in my case instead of thinking that I'm talking to the actual guy I feel like I'm talking to my boyfriend so idk I feel bad but I feel lonely and sad cause I'm not getting what I deserve as the girlfriend. So please let me know what ur opinion thank you 😔