Gender disappointment

We didn’t find out the sex of our baby this time around. And I honestly didn’t care if baby was a boy/girl! Our first born was a boy and we lost him 3 weeks after he was born. Our second was a girl. Perfect and healthy! So my only desire was healthy for this baby #3! The WHOLE pregnancy I went feeling (momtution) this baby was a boy. Convinced myself! So when our baby was born on August 22nd and they said “it’s a girl” my heart kinda sank. And I feel bad for saying that but I have to say it somewhere! I love my new perfectly healthy daughter to bits and I wouldn’t give her up for a moment! But I’m kinda sad she wasn’t a boy. 😢 I just wanna be able to give my husband another son!

Words of a terrible mother.