I haven’t SH’ed in years. I mean we’re talking 7 years now. But tonight. Things have been getting worse.

I’ve been with my partner for 3 years, I love him, everything is good in that part of my life.

But work is shit, I work long hours for barley any pay. There’s no support from them. I struggle every month to pay my bills, rent, petrol, food.

It just seems futile, I know things will undoubtedly get better but right now. It’s all too hard. I just want to feel something. Anything.

I feel guilty for not being happy all the time, I feel guilty for being snappy with my boyfriend,

I feel guilty for finding other guys/girls attractive,

I feel guilty. All the damn time.