I’m a stay at home mom. I have been since our first who is almost 2 and now I’m pregnant with our second. I am beyond excited and grateful; I know it’s a blessing to be able to stay at home with my babies AND it’s a blessing to be pregnant. However, I am so equally exhausted and feel like I have PPD—almost two years after having my baby. My son is awesome but he’s going through terrible two’s right now holy !?&$! on rough days it is ROUGH! The constant whining and crying and tantrum after tantrums...I just don’t have any energy left in me to deal with it and I just lay on my couch letting him cry it out. I feel horribly guilty about not being able to console him right then and there but also, he is VERY strong willed so 99% of the time it actually helps the situation when I “ignore” his poor behavior and let him come to me when he’s done and ready to chill out.

I love my husband but he can be so clueless sometimes. He often works from home but doesn’t come up once to ask if I need some help or a break. And with working at home he gets a lot of free time. So I know he’s available. He has it in his head that watching our son is my job. He is helpful during weekends when we we are all together and when we got out and stuff but during the week it is difficult. I’m not saying this to shit talk my husband I’m just “venting.”

Please, I don’t want to hear everyone judging my husband and saying he’s a terrible husband and father for not helping more and stuff—cause 1) that’s not true. He DOES help 2) telling me he sucks doesn’t make anything better.

I’m just tired and hormonal maybe (lol) and did I mention tired? Hopefully second trimester will be much easier and I’ll get my energy back. Just one more week. This pregnancy has been so different from my first so I think I’m just trying to get used to all this—almost like I’m pregnant for the first time. Also, being pregnant with a toddler is SO much more a different experience from being pregnant with your first. Or at least in my experience this has been true. So I think I just have a lot going on (in my head) and I’m just overwhelmed and excited and trying to adjust to all these new changes. I love my husband. I love our son. I love our baby and I love where I am in my life. Mama just needs a break. That’s all. 😌

Hopefully with Labor Day coming up I can have my husband watch our son for a day when he’s off work and I’ll just take the day to spend some me time.

Anyone else feeling anxious and overwhelmed and tired but still happy and content and grateful? lol surely i can’t be the only one.