Finally left a doctor's appointment not feeling so defeated or sad. We changed the c section date to the 11th of September that date has special meaning to her dad...I in no way associate it with tragedy so that's good. Baby is doing great she moves so much my organs are definitely taking a beating but it's ok. I finally got to see her face its be at least 2 months since I've seen her. So now I just have to keep her in until the 11th lol which I know I have no control over and if she decides to come right now I'd be ecstatic.