please help..

I have always been a depressed person but recently it’s been so bad.. it’s like i will have one good day and then three bad. I’m so lonely and my family treats me so bad and doesn’t take it seriously when I say I’m depressed. I try texting the 24/7 help hotlines but they don’t answer. My “ friends “ don’t talk to me unless it’s something about a Snapchat streak. I don’t want to kill myself but I always have this voice in my head telling me nobody loves and it would be better if I did.. someone please help me