Hey ladies 💕

I miscarried a few weeks ago at about 6 weeks pregnant. I went to the ER to make sure I was all good to just miscarry naturally, I was in a lot of pain (more than my usual period) and bleeding a lot but, the doctor said I’d be all good to return to work the next day as long as nothing worsened. I went to work the next day and have been going to work everyday since. It has been extremely draining to go to work everyday with a mask on (I work in customer service in a very high end facility where I have to be 100% nice at all times) and acting normal. My husband and I have wanted this for two years. Last Thursday my co worker told me she was pregnant, telling me how healthy the baby is (knowing I miscarried) she didn’t have ill intention but, it was the last straw and that night I attempted to take my life. Since then I’ve been dragging everyday, I don’t talk to anyone but my husband about how I’m feeling and sometimes vent on social media to stay sane. Apparently somehow my boss saw one of my posts about wanting to end my life. Today he took the time to really talk to me and drove me to get help. I’m obviously SO thankful for his kindness and being an amazing boss but, I can’t help but feel dramatic and guilty for him taking time out to do that for me and to care so much about me. I feel guilt for grieving so heavily over an early loss. He also is letting me take work off till Wednesday and I feel so guilty that my co workers are gonna have to cover my shifts, I never want to inconvenience anyone and feel silly for dragging them into my mess. I’m so thankful for my jobs support but, I’m laying here beating myself up for posting on my social media. I have an appointment with my a doctor in a couple weeks to get my body prepared to be pregnant again. I’m super thankful this all happened because I would’ve never reached out for help but, I feel so guilty. Have any of you ladies experienced guilt for taking help during this period of grieving?