15 weeks pregnant and not excited

Here I am 15 weeks pregnant and not excited about my pregnancy, I have zero type of emotion about it. Literally zero!

At first I was very much exited but my husband and I have been non stop arguing almost every other day for months now and it’s getting so draining.

I feel like a bad mom to this little bean but I can’t find myself to be happy when I myself isn’t happy.

We already have to other children. One is mine from a past relationship and one is his. We don’t have his son often and this week we did and it showed that we’re not ready for this next baby. I just wish time would rewind to before I got pregnant, before we even talked about getting pregnant.

🙃 if you’re gonna be harsh I don’t really care. These are my true feelings and I’m just ready to let them out instead of keeping them in