Feeling like im alone.

So lastnight and today hubby and i had sex. First few times since birth. I knew it would be uncomfortable and all that. But after my twins sex isnt fun, sex for me has no emotional connection, to me its a waste of time. Everytime he asks or persuades me to have sex i just get annoyed before, during and after. He can tell somethings going on but i havent brought it up. Im just hoping it has to do with whats happening lately.. moving into his parents (i didnt want to and kept refusing), we get his kids everyother week and now baby mama has no sitter so now im getting them every week. They also stress me out hard core. My pig keeps getting loose and running away, my boobs are killing because im exclusively breast feeding. I just hope itll go away because im tired of faking it..