Hello, September. This year has absolutely flown by. So many ups and downs, and unknowns moving forward. I'm trying to stay positive, but some days are harder than others.

I had some odd pains after AF stopped this time. Once my AF cramps cease, I don't have anymore uterine pains again until after ovulation, so it was really out of the norm. It was a sharp pain in the middle of my uterus (I guess) that would come and go throughout the day, but seemed like it was building up. It grew stronger and more frequent, until I was feeling it evey couple of minutes. It almost felt like something tearing/being cut, that's the only way I can think to describe it. I started bleeding again very lightly, and the pain went away completely after that. I don't know if the pain and bleeding were connected or not. I often wonder about all the pains I get during my luteal phase and through AF, what are they, and are they normal? 🤔

I woke up this morning with a lot of pink in my CM, after having nothing all day yesterday. So I guess I'm spotting again, which is also unusual. My body is so weird. 🤷‍♀️

Last night when hubby was getting ready for work, I was watching something on TV and a girl on the show had just found out that she was pregnant. Hub turns to me and says, "you know, if you get pregnant this month, we'll have an anniversary baby!" Our anniversary is in June. My heart felt like it soared and broke a little bit at the same time. I didn't know he ever even thought about things like that. 💙

QUESTION: Do you still use TTC friendly lubes? I used them pretty heavily the last two months, and now I'm trying to decide if maybe I should just skip them all together this cycle and see what happens. My bottle of CP is getting low, and I probably won't bother replacing it.