Today marks 9months trying. Its so hard when if the first time had worked id be holding a baby in my arms right now. Instead im loosing hope. I know i have pcos but my blood work is near normal i should be fine to have a baby. No luck though. I am mad at my partner right now to because all he does is mope. Feeling like we should be coming together in this but its pulling us apart because im tired of trying and failing. Ive had so maby miscarriages even if i got pregnant i wouldnt trust it or get excited at this point. Im just exhausted, this was suppose to be our break month. We still had sex during that point but still werent over trying with ovulation kits. I dont want to go bk to trying everythjng opk and pee tests and body temp. Im exhausted by it. I just want to have a baby. We get our first fertility appointmentin a couple months. May just wait until then and find out im a failure even more or something i cant controls broken in me. Not looking forward to anythjng.