My Csection Experience

I'm writing this just to share my story in hopes it'll help ease someone's mind. With my DS I had it all planned out that I would have an all natural water birth, and man did I try. However that wasn't what my little man had in mind, I labored for a full 24hrs unassisted and unmedicated. Finally after checking my cervix for the 3rd time only to find out I hadnt made any progress still at 5cm...it was heart breaking but I was so determined so I decided to try opening my hips to allow him to drop hoping he'd get my cervix to start dialating, nope nothing. So my midwife basically gave me an ultimatum, I could either go home and labor at home in hopes he'd eventually move down or I could go to the hospital, at this time my contractions were 2-3 mins apart and so intense. Therefore I decided to go to the hospital, my midwife came with made sure everyone was aware of my wishes ie delayed cord clamping, immediate skin to skin, we didn't know the gender so we expressed how important it was to us that my husband was the one who told me the gender. I opted for an epidural to get a little rest since I'd been laboring for over 24hrs now. I labored another 8 hours or so at the hospital, I refused to allow them to give me pitocin I already was uneasy about accepting the epidural but then I spiked a fever and they rushed me in for a Csection. I no longer had control and all I wanted was my baby safely on my chest. The drugs they gave me, gave me the shakes and I remember panicking thinking omg what if I can't hold my baby because I'm shaking. Everyone assured me everything would be fine. They take me in, and it's all a blur but I remember hearing my son cry and seeing the tears in my husbands eyes telling me we have a boy and all of a sudden time stood still. In one single moment life made total sense, my son was perfect. He laid on my chest the entire time they closed me up, they allowed the cord to pump all the blood into my baby until my husband was able to cut it. He latched immediately and my milk came in the very next day. We both had to be on iV antibiotics in case of an infection since my placenta was infected (not sure with what the doc said he'd never seen anything like it). The first time I stood up after, I felt like my insides were going to fall out but once I got home and settled life was pure bliss. The recovery was smooth I took it easy for the full 6 weeks they recommended but I was up walking around and moving on day 4 I felt completely fine. 2 years later my scar is still sensitive but small and clean. The moral of my story is it doesn't matter how our babies decide to enter this world because once they're here nothing else matters. So try not to stress and enjoy the time you have with that sweet babe inside of you safe and sound.