I know I'm not the only one but it's so hard to get through this, the daily reminder I lost my child, having to sit at this house every day wondering if it's ever gonna get better, wondering if youd be daddy's little tractor buddy or mamas sweet angel. I think about you every day, I'm having a hard time understanding why it hasnt been my turn, I dont want to sound ungrateful but when is it our time, when do I get to be blessed with the miracle of a newborn baby. Everyone says it gets better and everything happens for a reason, I've only heard this from the people that have never went through the loss of a child and arent struggling to see that plus sign or two lines. I don't mean to sound desperate but I'm aching but I'm numb. The day I lost you is the day I felt like I lost everything.