Bummed out

So i decided that i wasn't going to put so much thought into getting pregnant and just enjoy life ,right?

So why is it bothering me so much that my husband is doing everything to ensure that I don't become pregnant? It literally hurts when he dismisses the question about kids from other people or he says things like "Nah, we not having any." 😭😭😭😭

Im doing my best to just relax and live life but, his actions are making me feel some type of way.