Regret pregnancy? Help šŸ™

I want to know if anyone else felt this way too, or if it’s just me. I’ve debated about even posting this for awhile so please no judgement until you read.

This baby was SO planned so I don’t know why I feel this way. We’ve been married for 2 years (together 4), we have a house, we’re doing great financially, we’re both happy. We were TTC for 2 years and on clomid for a few months, and we had some losses in that time.

I’m about 9/10 weeks and for the past few weeks, I just wish we didn’t get pregnant and that I wasn’t anymore. It makes no sense because this is ALL I’ve wanted. I’ve cried over infertility, been jealous of others who were pregnant, prayed to get pregnant. I don’t know why I feel this way, it makes me feel horrible.

My husband is so excited, and I broke down one night telling him everything and he was shocked. He said he wasn’t angry he just didn’t understand and I told him I don’t either. I haven’t told a lot of people about the pregnancy, but when they bring the pregnancy up I’ll change the subject because I just don’t want to talk about it.

I’ve debated about talking to a therapist or someone, because I don’t know if this is just hormones or what the problem is. Has anyone else felt this way? Is it normal? I’m just tired of feeling like this when I should be so excited. I don’t understand how I can go from having infertility issues wishing and hoping I could get and stay pregnant, to wishing I wasn’t pregnant now 😭

**thank you all for your responses, it makes me feel so much better that I’m not the only one who feels/felt this way šŸ’›