Finding out baby’s gender

I know finding out the gender should be a very exciting moment, but what if you’re not happy with the news you have gotten? Unfortunately this is how I’m feeling right now. I’m hoping that maybe it will pass but the amount of disappointment I feel is almost making it hard to be happy and all I want to do is cry. I have 2 daughters already from a previous relationship and wasn’t even planning on having anymore children I was content with my 2 little princesses that I already have and was very adamant about not having more. Here I am pregnant with my 3rd and at first was terrified and I didn’t even know if I was happy about it one because I really wasn’t sure about another child and how I could do it 2, because it seemed so fast and 3 because my divorce isn’t even final yet so a lot of emotions are going on. After finally being excited we got the gender yesterday an I found out it was another girl. I really thought it was gonna be a boy I thought everything was different I prayed and felt different but a blood test confirmed another girl. And maybe because everything is new and emotions are new I’m not happy about that at all. I know it sounds selfish and crazy but I prayed and prayed and I think total state of shock has just taken over. Has anyone else ever felt this way?